Late nights...

I've been observing a little strange phenomenon about myself..

My past few blogs have been written by me in the night. And I mean late night, like right now 12:40 am and beyond.

I feel like writing when I am alone, and there is no one to disturb me.(Guess thats like one of the most common preferences of ppl) but still, there is an evening and there is a morning and there is an after lunch time at office when all go to sleep.(me too). So why only the night?

Okay, I'll tell you. Lately I have been having this feeling that sleeping is such a waste of time.

I just don't feel like sleeping long hours. My body asks for it but when I really do sleep, inside me someone wakes me up some one wants me to get up and get going.

So, since I can't really sing and make loud noises at night and I am not so much interested in anything else, my body turns me towards writing. It forces me to write. I don't know if it really does something constructive, but it does give me a feeling of satisfaction that I have done something instead of just sleeping off.

Now my body is using all kinds of filthy words for me and pulling me to sleep, but I just feel like writing some thing more...

Sleep is as important as anything else in life. I know. And many things in life are more important than sleep sometimes. Writing a blog presently seems one of those things to me..

I'll know better in future. I guess....
My liking for writing might stem from the fact that I am basically an open minded guy. I don't like keeping personal feelings in myself and die. When you have no hidden feelings, no stored up emotions, you're happiest and my sole purpose in life is happiness, my happiness as well of people around me.
So when I write the feelings inside me come out in the form of words. There are some feelings which cannot find expression physically. Those sentiments find a home in the writings. And when I read them back, I feel a sense of freedom inside me, a feeling of relinquishing some kind of control over myself, some breaking of shackles kindof stuff.
Now it might not be all so complex and so sentimental but simply.... I like writing. It gives me a sense of permanence in this impermanent world.
I try to understand the concepts behind life and try to explain them to myself and to you(which is many a times me myself!).
I would keep on writing till my hands fall off if not for sleep. and the topic goes back to the starting point.. Good night..

Guide....

"Zindagi bhi ek nasha hai dost.
Jab chadta hai to poocho mat kya alam rehta hai.
Lekin jab utarta hai......"
Hmm..... Din Dhal Jaaye, haye, raat na jaaye..
Tu to na aaye teri yaad sataye..